Rainy days

had a doctors appointment today and got an official referral to a neurologist. hopefully I can get some answers and some help by seeing this person. My Dr isn't comfortable in prescribing medications or giving a full-blown diagnosis that's why I have an appointment in a month to see the resident neurologist. it's kind of frustrating having to wait another month and having to deal with my constant excessive daytime sleepiness with no full answers or any help. but I have to look at it as I'm finally going to be able to get some actual answers.

on a brighter note I found out there's an accelerated teaching course at the College in Missouri (where ill be moving late next spring). so instead of waiting four years to start teaching language arts I might be able to do it in two. so that's what I'm excited about but I think that's all I'm going to write tonight, have a good night.

Awake, well kind of..

Good morning! 
With my second moutain dew voltage in hand, Ive decided to write about things that have come to light over the last 24hrs. Come to find out that I most likly have narcolepsy. I am still trying to wrap my head around this recent idea. Even though thinking about it, it makes alot of sense.

let me explain since middle school, if not before ive been, well.. exhausted. I'd fall asleep in class regularly even if I got a full night of sleep. In second grade, I was diagnosed with ADHD because I'd go go go until I just drop.. as I got older the tiredness got worse and the only way I could just stay awake to stay focused and manage the day was by taking my adderall XR for my ADHD. If I don't take my adderall even to this day I will find myself falling asleep reading a book, sitting down, or if I'm not active the tiredness just gets overwhelming. I have also  picked up over the years since middle school an excessive caffeine habit, I can easily drink a 12 pack (if not more) in a day just to keep my energy levels to where I can function.

also I show other symptoms of the disease, my legs can give out from underneath me and I can fall for no apparent reason. a lot of the time I have auditory hallucinations while I'm trying to fall asleep, and no matter how much I sleep it is never enough.

so I've made appointment with my primary care physician as well as my psychiatrist, to finally get to the bottom of "whats wrong with me" and hopefully  find some medication or alternative therapy solutions to this disorder.

I'm going to try to get some stuff done while I have a little bit of energy, so I will write some more later.

Ready, set, write!

Time for me to get my creative juices flowing. I am still learning which direction my life is taking me. I am a single mom, a college student, and I have medical issues that are not completely figured out yet. I hope going forward you enjoy reading my journey of self growth and self discovery!